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Starting to get back into posting more on my personal tumblr .. hmmm ..

It’s so sad seeing people change for the worse due to relationships.

People start smoking, drinking, throwing their grades away, and doing drugs just because their boyfriend or girlfriend convinced them to? Really? 

I’m not saying that I’m 100% innocent myself, I mean who really is? I’m just saying .. shouldn’t you be with someone who helps you be a better person and makes you happy? Someone’s who’s actually there for you and genuinely cares for you? 

Why would you want to be with someone who encourages you to hurt yourself and basically throw your life away? You’re making yourselves look stupid in front of everyone by being so easy.

So proud of Matt :’)

He did amazing !

There’s always people that complain that I don’t open up enough to them.

But what they don’t understand is that it’s not because I don’t want to .. it’s more like I don’t know how to. It’s scary, sharing how you feel. For anyone.

I’ve never been the type to open up to anyone. I always depended on myself growing up and I had the mentality that if I ignored a problem, it would suddenly just disappear eventually.

I wish people understood that even if I open up over something small that’s been bothering me, it’s a huge step for me. It actually takes a huge effort for me to tell others how I feel when it comes to something that’s troubling. I always thought that if I opened up, that all I’m doing is whining about my problems and wasting other peoples time. Even those that are close me.

I’m just not used to opening up.

I’m still learning and I’m still trying.

Amazing day.

I got to spend the day with Matt which was wonderful. Thank god for PD days!

I was so tired but happy when I got home, then I noticed that there was a package on the desk upstairs. Turns out the DSLR came in this morning ! I freaked out holy crap. And then my mom brought home some restaurant take out for dinner. ahhh this day was perfect. 

I can’t even explain how happy I am right now.

omg omg omg just got the email confirmation that they just got the DSLR back in stock and they’ve already started shipping it

it should be here in a couple of days wper;’kq’3aksd

Sometimes I just want to say it all.

Speak about everything that’s been bothering me from small things to the big things and just let it all go. Imagine all the weight off your shoulders that would be lifted off if that was possible. To somewhat be able to breathe peacefully without having to worry as much because you’ve finally revealed every little detail that still triggers your mood ..